BACK IN THE BEGINNING OF JANUARY, I wrote out a list of my New Year Resolutions. Things I hoped to focus more on in the coming year. We’re 6 months into 2019 so far, so I thought it’d be good to update on how the journey is going. Have I kept up? Have I dropped the ball?
HOW ARE YOU? I would say I’m good but I don’t know. Honestly trying to keep it together, trying to keep my mind occupied, but some days it’s hard. And I can’t. But… here’s how my Resolution Progress 2019 has gone so far.
#7- Write Every day
I DIDN’T WRITE as much as I wanted to when the year began. I wanted to write every day, but it was pretty much writing every now and again when I felt like it. I have gotten a lot of writing done, don’t get me wrong, it just wasn’t an everyday thing.
THAT CHANGED WHEN I JOINED a club on Wattpad! It’s a group where we keep an eye on each other, and we attempt to write 500 words every single day. I’ve been an active member for a little over a month now, and I’m happy to say that I have indeed written 500 words each day!
SO WRITING EVERY DAY? Check! Going well so far.
#6- Remove the Negatives
I’D LIKE TO SAY YES. But the truth is, things seem to have gotten worse since we moved. I talk a bit about it in other posts, but I’m not sure my mind is in a good place right now. I feel more exhausted, irritated, and full of anxiety on a daily basis.
SO HAVE I REMOVED THE NEGATIVES? No. Not yet. That’s still a work in progress.
#5- Move Out
WE MOVED OUT into our own apartment. It was a huge step! And we we’re thankful to be able to have our own place. But it isn’t ideal. And the atmosphere and the situation has my anxiety skyrocketing every day, wondering how things are going to go.
SO MOVING OUT? Check. But in a be careful what you wish for kind of way.
#4- Focus on Hand of Rel
I’M REALLY HAPPY WITH THIS ONE! So, I have been pushing Hand of Rel in ways I haven’t in years. I’m excited about where things are going! I’ve also done a lot of really cool sketches and artwork for the series, so I have kept to that as well.
SO FOCUS ON HAND OF REL? Check, and double-check!!!
#3- Read More
I WANTED TO READ HARRY POTTER, at the beginning of the year. Because like I said, I haven’t read through all the books. But that idea kind of went out the window. I don’t know, I start reading and I don’t have too much motivation to keep going? I guess it’s because I already know what happens. And one of my favorite things about reading a book is being surprised. That’s why I hate spoilers so much.
I think I’ve mentioned it before, but I read the books out of order. I think I read Deathly Hollows, Goblet of Fire, and then Half Blood Prince. The writing is amazing, don’t get me wrong. But I already know what happens.
I HAVE BEEN READING a lot more, though. Just online. Since I joined Wattpad, I have been reading stories from fellow authors, and I have to say that I am impressed with a lot of the work!
SO READ MORE? Check.
#2- Publish Stories to Wattpad
I HAVE A STORY already posted to Wattpad! I posted all 3 chapters of The Adventures of Rel Rel: Lost Mirror. I pretty much have all of Social Panic written, thanks to the 500 club! I just need to add a few edits, finish up some art, work up some kind of cover, and I’ll be ready to go! Hoping to start posting 1 chapter a week, starting this coming Monday.
SO PUBLISH STORIES TO WATTPAD? Check.
#1- Finish My Book
THIS IS A YES AND NO kind of thing. The Adventures of Rel Rel: Lost Mirror is finished and Social Panic is well underway. I am a good few chapters into Watcher’s Paradox, and I am loving how the story is turning out! Hopefully, I will have it finished and polished off in the next few months, and ready to go up on Wattpad.
SO WITH THE WATTPAD STORIES yes, I am finishing my books. My story. But there are 4 books in the series that I haven’t touched. The core parts of the story. So in that aspect, no. It kind of upsets me, but I’m making more progress than I have in a long time. So it’s something. I’m moving forward little by little
THINGS ARE DIFFICULT for me right now. My head isn’t in the right space, honestly. This move was a bad idea. So many things are weighing on my mind at the moment… but at least I’m making progress in my projects. I guess I’ll talk about them (if I haven’t already) at some point. But I’m tired. Exhausted. And starting to feel my will, and my drive, for everything in life, crumbling. I feel lonely. Abandoned. And forgotten. But whatever. I’ll go for as long as I can before I shut down completely. If anything happens to me, you’ll be able to look back and see that I tried. At least. Maybe I’ll look back at these entries and laugh because I made it. Or someone will read these, and see that I left a trail of cries for help, and no one noticed.
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